I never meant to hurt you...

I'm having a night wher i feel really weird. A combination of almost depressed, bored shitless and charmed not being on.

My immortal is playing now. I will never hate this song. I love it. Piano can be so soothing to a half-dead mind.

Bound by the life you left behind. Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me. These wounds wont seem to heal. Too much for time to erase.

This song came out when my ex-friend Jemma started being weird. I kinda feel like the incidents which happened between us explains a lot of friendship troubles I have had since she went. After we had a massive fight one day, i had told her she was a bitch for ignoring me even after i yelled at her to listen to me for once and then when school finished.... I was meant to go to her house but I decided i didn't want to talk to her. So i rode home on my bike really fast. And when I walked in the door, mum asked me why i wasn't at Jemma's and I said that Jemma had a family emergency and went to my room. I laid down on my bed for a long time, thinking about everything. I didn't cry until a couple of days later when the fighting affected all of the year 7 girls. My year7 teacher got us in her office to sort out the mess. I was on one side of the room with Kate, Heidi and Ellen. Jemma was on the other side of the room with Genna. That was the worst day of my life, probably. After I told everyone what was happening, it was Jemma's turn to tell her side of the story.
This is what she said: "... I was only mean to Phoebe when I was around Genna..."
She just told the class what still echoes through my mind today. If there was anything I remember the most, that would be it. I remember everything about that moment. From the approximate time of day to who was in the room to what I was wearing. That day was a friday, the second last friday of the year. and that was how I was gonig to remember my primary school years. Marvy. I don't mean to be a sack of whinge but whenever "My Immortal" comes on, thats what I think about. I can't help that. Fab. I think Jemma and I were too alike to be able to stay friends. We knew everything about eachother. We did everything together. This was a curse and what sent the friendship to hell.

Whenever I listen to a new song, i listen especially to the lyrics to see if I can find any similarities in my own life. Usually I can in some off target way, but if it's and Evanescence song, always seems easier to find similarities. Hmmmmmmn... mind churning info...

I hate depressed nights. Sooo deppressing!#%*^ lol.

M lmqq Hay. M hysa hay. One of the people from that new movie Eragon looks a bit like Hay. My tummy got flutterbyes.

Madsoot... yes I agree, there should be a combination of the 3 genres as I thoroughly enjoy all 3 of them. But as P.O.D metioned, most genres take elements from others genres to add adversity and to interest the audience in something new. This has often been the case since a lot of people became musically stupid. This happened around the 70s/80s when people were listening to music rather than understanding it. It's also the time when obesity levels in people increased. Or basically when the world became lazy. I find it irritating when I can't discuss the roles of harmonies in a song with someone. Very irritating indeed. So I find I usually talk to myself playing roles; myself and my alter-ego. Now i have gone completely off track. Marvy-zone.

I'm gonna update my other site so other people can enjoy the simplicity of stalking me.